You Too!

The more I write and speak of my "change of life" journey, friends, family and people I barely know have been very encouraging and have some tidbit of advice or a hug saying I will be ok.
I know that I will be ok.. but I am on a search I know there has to be more to this .. Thus the name "Change of Life" I feel mine changing and morphing into a different chapter of my life.
The symptoms and effects of "the Pause" are only a part of it I believe...
A few people have come up to me or written and said "you too" you feel like this or that, so do I !
I thought I was the only one, I thought there was something wrong with me, I would cry at the drop of a hat or snap someones head off or start sweating when no one else was, feel anxious when all is ok in my life. I have found that I am not the only one.. I am not crazy!
One thing I have noticed is that now my life has quieted down some, at least from the stand point of raising kids and sports and band practice , now they are doing it with their babies. I have more time on my hands and more time on my mind... thus the old demons and poison or bad things that happened along time ago are percolating and trying to boil over. I had to suppress cuz I had no time for me to deal with, or I did not want too. They are trying their best to present themselves again... this time I have time and I am grown and a little more mature ... I think I will slay these demons now one by one as the strong woman I am and have always been... Its in my blood, it is inherited from many beautiful women in my family and in my life... let the poison spill out and the demons present there self and open the ugly closet with the skeletons.
My Grandson Sammie is 3 yrs. old and I have a little compass on my keychain I picked up somewhere, he asked me "What is this Grandma?" I said " it is a compass so we don't get lost buddy boy" then he stated with a very comforting voice " don't be scared Grandma...were not lost we are at Sonia's " So I will remember this when I feel blue, or demons feel like they are winning or life is overwhelming "Don't be scared Grandma we are not lost" Thanks Buddy Boy Grandma is not scared!